cycle day one

When do you feel most like yourself? When do you feel most at home in your physical body, your soul? Looking through the lense of cycle syncing and awareness… i personally feel the most “me” during my menstrual phase. Prior to my bleed, the systems are churning in overdrive… everything feels hard; this isn’t right, that doesn’t go there, why don’t you get me? And then… i can feel it: as my uterine lining sheds, as my womb contracts, as the blood drips… a sign of relief, a greeting of self: it’s me. 

I want this space to be welcoming to all, especially those that despise their bleed. Especially those healing from anything that may not lend itself to loving ones bleed (trauma, past life, pain, infertility, coming off the pill, the list continues). You can hold both in your heart, in this space. You can want so much more & you can consider the power of your bleed. 

Can you see it as simply coming home to yourself? 

28-ish days is a long journey. We are not the same every day. We change, we reconsider, we overthink. We love, we yell, we cry. We laugh so hard we pee a little. And then there are dark clouds and confusion. Self-doubt and shame. We hold all of our feelings and everyone else's. We tidy, we clean, we prioritize our own needs last. Did we even drink any water today? 

So after all of that, day one of your cycle arrives. You slow down. Sometimes it feels like you arrive with a screeching halt. You think:

They can do the laundry today. 

No dishes for me.

I’m going to bed early. 

I am watching my favorite show. 

I’ll take a long shower with candles lit. 

I'll turn inward; back to me. 

Not only do the physical needs change focus, so do the internal necessities. The veil is thin. We understand so much more about our prior state: Suddenly, that person isn’t so annoying after all. Aw, look at how cute my partner is. Wow, I am a powerful being and I love myself!

Make your bleed a priority. Make it a time to come back home; like returning to your cozy nest after a month long backpacking trip in South East Asia. Treat yourself kindly and well. Nestle deeply into the places of yourself that you don’t fully love or accept yet and give those cranky places love, kindness, compassion. This is your time to do it. No one will do it for you. I will tell you from experience that spending at least two to three days caring for yourself in this way (even for an hour a day), the rest of your cycle ahead will be that much more: 

Enjoyable

Accomplished

Creative

Smooth 

lean in to your flow. love your flow. THIS is coming home to your highest self.